Faery Blessings! Take a breath as we step together into this powerful portal of Sacred Time. We enter it now as the Moon moves into Pisces. Then the heat gets kicked up with the New Moon/Solar Eclipse followed by the Spring Equinox. I believe my sluggish days of cavin’ it and hibernation are behind me. It was incredible these last few months, hell this last year! Incredible yes, but I didn’t say easy. This newsletter is really sort of symbolic for me because it marks a huge turning point on a personal level. A lot of chapters have ended in my life, but as I say goodbye I do so with love, honor and respect for all the lessons, opportunities for growth and really the opportunity to experience something different, something new and something greater on so many levels! Greater than I could have ever imagined for myself and for those around me. Thank you, God! To say that 2014 was a year of transition for me would be a great understatement. It has been a year of endings and beginnings. I am still amazed how the universe works to realign us to our path and our purpose. I’m still in shock of how different everything is and I am in awe of the beauty and magic of how life works out.
I decided to attend a Santa Fe writing retreat in March of last year to finish my book. At the time I was having a hard time completing it. This retreat appeared as if out of nowhere and something within me just had to go. So I did. And I did finish my book! Which was amazing in and of itself. But something else happened!
Tell me, what does one do when, without warning, you meet someone…. the kind of someone that when you look in their eyes you see heaven and earth, you see yourself, and you know without a doubt that you’ve known this person for a thousand lifetimes?!
Yeah, well I didn’t know what to do either. So I did nothing. And I went home. And I tried to tell myself that whatever I felt when I saw this person was nothing. But it was something and I couldn’t let it go. I knew the universe was trying to tell me something, but why now! Why, like this? When I got really quiet and looked deep within, I knew exactly what the universe was trying to tell me. I had known for a while, but I had not wanted to face it. The fact of the matter was this: everything needed to change. I needed to change. I had resisted this change for as long as possible. Now I was standing at the moment when the rubber meets the road. What are you gonna do? kept playing in my mind. I knew it was game time, like they say, and I had to make a decision. Not just about my relationship, but about my life. Was I going to take a chance and open up to something greater or was I going to play it safe? Many who know me think I never play it safe – traveling from one country to the next, picking up and moving overseas at the drop of the dime, doing the unconventional usually. But all that is easy. For me. What’s difficult is opening my heart, making myself completely vulnerable. I had made a nice little life for myself where I knew I wouldn’t be challenged. Emotionally speaking that is. Oh sure I’d be challenged – financially, mentally, physically – but anything having to do with feelings and emotions…well those could just go bother someone else.
We look at this and say, “so was it all about a relationship?” Yes and no. It was about everything! Relationship with a partner, relationship with friends, relationship with my book and success, and ultimately relationship with myself.
So I jumped! I jumped off the proverbial cliff with all the faith in the world that I was following my heart and I would land on that piece of land or cloud or stepping stone that I couldn’t yet see.
As we know, when our hearts are open anything can happen. It was in this state of openness that I chose the path of the unknown. This path that ultimately led me deep into my own heart. And it was here that I was able to conceive of something greater. It was here that I let go and surrendered. And as a result of stepping off that cliff, I walked into the arms of my beloved and current partner. My twin flame, my love that was waiting for me there.
It has been an epic journey of remembering, two souls finding one another across time and space as a result of a divine appointment made long ago and saying yes!
So as I said this last year has been a year of great change for me: I met my twin flame and life partner, I finished and published my book, I moved three times the last of which was out of state to Philadelphia to live with my love, Curtis. I am so grateful to everyone who has been so supportive in my transition. While it has been filled with joy and happiness, it was fraught with a hell of a lot of challenges and heartache along the way. So thank you to all my friends and family for being there for me and for continually reminding me that I wasn’t crazy even though it may have appeared so to the outer world. Thank you all and I love you!
Blessings and Faery Light,